Well, our health is good, at least that's what our doctors tell us. However, there are nights that we could definitely get better sleep, but that's just a part of ageing. Unfortunately, the only thing we've been able to do, during this past summer, is take our boat out on local lake. However, being on the water four times this summer was very, very enjoyable. The other things we moved back to Colorado to do, during the summer, we haven't been able to do because of the virus problem. A number of events were cancelled. So, with the descent health we both have, we are definitely HAPPY, but dealing with the other things..........definitely FRUSTRATING, but, have to handle the cancellations.
Like most people, my moods change throughout the day. The virus hasn't made much of a difference in my life since I've always been a loner and a homebody. Recently I have been feeling sadness because of the loss of my brother; it comes over me without warning when I realize that I'll never hear his voice again. I asked my sister-in-law to leave his greeting on their home phone so I can hear it from time to time.
My mood in the last week or so could be described as adrift. Thinking has become even more scattershot than usual. As a waitress we used to call it being "stuck," i.e., spinning your wheels, not accomplishing anything. I suppose it is partly due to the virus. After 7 months of conflicting rules and information, it's become easier just to stay at home. Now it's become a habit. But, I want the daily chaos and disinformation to go away, even more than I want the virus to go away. I know how to cope with the virus. (I always like to provide a picture. )
My mood changes like the weather and sometimes because of the weather. Gray and gloomy days will make me gloomy as it will most people. Sunny skies will bring on a sunny disposition. I think I'm usually in a state of acceptance and " it is what it is" so external forces I try to let roll off.
Often down, often rageful, but that's life-long family stuff and not much to do with any other events.
My overall mood tends to be thankful. Thankful that my three sons have grown to be decent men; thankful to be a grandma, thankful to have someone in my life for the rest of it, just all around thankful. These and other thoughts keep my mood on an even keel.
I am mostly even keeled, staying happy throughout the day, as long as I keep busy, which I do. My profession was listed as an essential service, so I stayed busy during the shutdown. With a major remodel coming up, I'll have some interesting project to do, daily, so everything should be fine. We were going to move to Colorado, which was going to give me a huge workload, but, as I now see the state heading down the California yearly fires path, we'll simply keep RVing up there, and move on when the fires start raging.
Some days I feel pretty content and go about my day, exercising, working on my classic car, fiddling around with investments, these are my main hobbies. Other days I am just "meh", kind of getting tired of all of this. I really miss traveling and just being able to do what I want when I want. I have a daughter in London, UK, who hasn't been able to come home for a visit, or me go there since this all started. I haven't seen her since last Christmas. We were all going to get together in Florida last April, but that was cancelled. So 2020 is a hell of a long year! Thankfully there is face time.
What caught my attention was the filling falling out. I did not even know what thread this was in - had searched the forum for vitamin or something else.. and this post came up. I've been taking something that may be known for being the nutrients needed for the teeth to grow back again, even in older people, and to the point that FILLINGS FALL OUT (they get pushed out by the tooth growing / the cavity healing ) ... In the last year, at least one of my decades old fillings came out - I was surprised! - it came out when I was using a tooth pick to get what I thought was a piece of food unstuck.. and the filling (an old toxic filling ) came out without prying - it practically just fell out.... and this is the cool part..... (I noticed when I checked the title - "feeling blue"? ) immediately, at once, as soon as the filling fell out, and ever since then, I felt elated, I felt better, brighter, than I did before that, and I did not even know I felt "bad", comparitively.... but the change was remarkable.... Just goes to show how much the toxic things used to fill cavities can affect us!