I didn’t think I would use a diary after my last attempt, it seemed to just contain pain. So I ended up shutting up and walking away from it, and two years later, I find that was a good decision. But without a spouse with which to discuss the merits, or the lack of, whatever ideas that pop into my head at any given moment, I now find I have no one to bounce my thoughts around with. I’ve always had ideas, and Michael was always the voice of reason. So I’ve decided to see if I can use this nitch in SOC as a depository for my wonderings. Hence the “Wonder” part of my moniker. For awhile now, I’ve been trying to sort through all the changes that arise from everything in my life flip-flopping in what seems like overnight. Yes grief is always a part of it. No matter the circumstances of the lifestyle change, there is always the loss to get through. But we do. And yes, life does go on, but I now find wading through the, “do’s/don’t’s, should/shouldn’t’s, how’s/why’s”/when’s/ where’s”, of things that cross my mind harder to keep in balance. So in the future, please kind people remember that I’m only “a wondering” about whatever again.