Love...is just a four letter word that encompasses so much The world with love is a lot better than a world without love Love...is just a four letter word that encompasses so much Let the love reach as many when alive and remembered with love after death.
I was deeply hurt by "love", once. I loved my wife as though I thought we could never part. But, our world crumbled, culminating in the death of her brother at 25. We had by then situated ourselves in an existence of personal possession: beautiful custom home on 3/4 acre, in Las Vegas, a 24' cuddy cabin boat (for Lake Mead), ownership of a haircutting salon, and this material possession existence fell apart. The house in Vegas I definitely mourned, deeply. I had poured a terrible amount of effort into it's rockwork, nursing hemorrhoids developed from lugging those heavy rocks, and lifting them into place. It just was not to be. I was, I thought, living the happiest part of my life up till then, but I wound up finishing college living with my Mother, the monument to my efforts, sold. For months, I felt like shit. Love had betrayed me, I thought, never really comprehending the terrible losses suffered by my young wife. "Love" has inspired me, at 23, when Sue & I were married, inspired an awe in her brother Rick, for graduating 2nd. in class from high school after 4 months in the hospital, inspired my relentless attack against my own deficiencies, inspired a need for friendship never found during all those years. Love has supported me, hurt me, left me without recourse, returned in a minor way, then remained, lately, stagnant. What might I expect next?
I love the poetry of Pablo Neruda, here are a couple with music from the movie "Il Postino", which is a favourite movie of mine. Il Postino trailer
Like you Frank I have lived through shattered dreams, lost some homes I created, ......plus my pursuit of love has led to many dead ends in my life, I have hurt myself and others for love, it that is what it was. I have no regrets except to those I may have unintentionally hurt along the way. Thankfully my life has also been blessed with much joy happiness and passion as well..............nowadays all the youthful highs and lows have left me, but I do not mourn this loss, instead I now experience a gentle constant love for my daughters, Lisa, the rest of my family and friends, and enjoy interludes when waves of love seem to engulf me, and I love everyone and everything at these times. I can wish for no more in these December years of my life and will hopefully die in this state with maybe a shot of some opiate if needed I hope you find some peace and satisfaction in your love life in the near future Frank Take care