Secret Diary. Do Not Read

You can buy adhesive remover pads at some drug stores. Acetone works too.

 

So I had a world-class meltdown this morning; did some ugly crying. Sometimes I just feel so frustrated and beat down, and fall into the "poor me" pit. Since I'm not allowed the respite of a bath to soak and cry, I kind of lost it. My hubby has escaped and gone over to his mom's to see about her; his whole life is nursemaiding someone these days.

One real annoyance is all the raw places on my skin from velcro and the stupid plastic bulb hangers for the drains. They are rubbing my skin raw and just feel so awful. Anyway, my hubby went to Lowe's and bought me a cotton nail apron for 97 cents, then ran it through the wash. It works great to tie around my waist and drop the drain bulbs in the nail pockets. It also makes a great fashion statement to have "LOWE'S" emblazoned across my midsection.

 

I can imagine that falling into the pit of self-pity is real easy after the beating you have taken. No shame in an ugly cry. I find foot-stomping and foul language really go well with it. That was some good insight on your husband's part. I hope he used a liberal amount of fabric softener so it would not only help with the scratching but also slow the absorption rate.

 

You do realize Beth that given your situation no one should find fault with you needing a good cry. Sometimes we just need to let all that crap out. I find it cleansing. * hugs *

 

Perhaps teaching yourself some form of meditation would help those low spots, @Beth Gallagher. Maybe @D'Ellyn Dottir can give you some pointers there if she is still on here.

 

Thanks, Marci. My entire life for the past 8 FREAKIN' MONTHS has been "cancer, cancer, CANCER." I'm just so beat down and tired of all of it. Thanks for understanding.

 

Sorry Don, but I have zero interest in that stuff. Not my "thing." I'll just cry and cuss and moan.

 

Too bad.

 

@Beth Gallagher

I believe I UNDERSTAND why you feel this way. I also believe @Don Alaska did not mean "too bad", but rather "to each his own beliefs".

Frank

 

Having just returned to the forum after an absence, I only now have become aware of your situation Beth. All I can offer is that I know someone who has gone through all that crap and is now as feisty as ever.

 

just because we're big girls now doesn't mean we can't have a private ball fest. lol!

 

I missed seeing your can, Ed! Glad you're back.

 

I just ate some Cheetos and they cheered me up.

 

I'm just not the meditating type, Frank. I know Don was trying to help, though.

 

@Beth Gallagher

I know, for I am the same way.

Frank