My mind wants to wander down memory lane so sleep is useless. Had run ins with the law in my early 20's and for some reason my mind thinks it is worthwhile to remember these events, did some time in prison nothing major just fighting. The real problem was when police showed up to break the fight up I fought with them, not a good idea, they have more of them then I had of me. When I was released had a hard time finding work and ended up homeless for a while. Sleeping in vacant buildings and alleys, some kid woke me one night to give me a sandwich and coffee and wanted to witness to me, was not in the mood, after he heard my story he walked me to the mission and told me to check in and get some help. The mission was not a bad idea and I hung around for a while, food and a place to sleep but they wanted me to get saved, I figured I was already saved so I did not need to get saved again, just hit a rough spot in life, it happens. They put me to work as a truck helper going around picking up donations for their thrift store and paid me 30 dollars a week to boot, could not complain at least it kept me busy and out of trouble. They had various church groups come in every night for brief bible study and I was expected to go and again get saved Every now and then the police would come pick me up and question me regarding some crime mostly muggings, figuring I had something to do with it. I always had an alibi so nothing ever come of them questioning me. Once you are on their radar it is hard to get off. I worried that some day I would get railroaded for something I did not do so I took off and headed back to Lancaster. Now that I got that out maybe I can get to sleep.
Last night, I had my first sleepless night in many months. Well to be honest I slept a couple of hours waking up with bad dreams.
My subconscious at 2 a.m." "For your viewing pleasure tonight, we will be showing a film that features every thing you should have or should NOT have said, done or bought for the last 50 years. As an added feature, we'll throw in the highlights of your worst humiliations. And the ushers will be going around asking you if you're *sure* you mailed that check or sent in that paperwork. Please lie back and enjoy the show...."
My past isn't the best either, but don't lose any sleep from thinking about it or dreaming about it. Actually, don't think about my past that much at all. However, not run-ins with the law......thank God!
I read an article this morning that said by age 70 most people have lost 90 percent of their ability to have REM sleep- deep sleep. Also that the time many wake up in the middle of the night is 3am. Had good info in the article.
I started watching the Godfather, the next thing I know it was over, where was my mind for that couple of hours?? Is that what is called a senior moment?
I think a large part of this is that after so many years of the same sensory input, it no longer stimulates. It becomes as yet another wave lapping at the shore, indistinguishable from it's predecessor or its antecedent. In other words, much of life just becomes white noise. Pffffffffffffffffffff.................
I've had insomnia since I was in my 30s. Sunday night I didn't get to sleep until around 5 a.m. despite taking all kinds of drugs. It can really mess your life up, something that people who don't have this problem usually don't understand.
I never sleep well unless it is during the daytime and I take a nap between 1pm and 3pm. I rest and wake up refreshed but a regular sleep night is hit and miss and unfortunately the only thing on TV worth watching is aired near the Witching Hours. I like to watch Young Sheldon on Fox, it's a hoot. This morning I was up at 5 but awake at 3am, got the senior van coming sometime today for a ride to and from the alternator shop so I can get a fresh alternator for the old truck. I found a loose wire in a crimped connection that might have been the problem and repaired that, it seemed to be charging again but the alternator is almost 20 years old even if it is low mileage. By the time I get home I will be ready for my nap after I bolt the new one on.
I've had extended periods of non-sleep due to illness (ruptured disc pressing on my spinal cord) and long-term barking dog issues. It messes with your mind. You begin to see why sleep deprivation is used as an interrogation tactic...you literally cannot think straight.
Youth can be a terrible time Sam Yoder as we struggle to find ourselves, so if you made it this far, I guess you figured things out some. As for sleep, my mind has a tough time shutting off when it's sleep time too. I kid myself by thinking an overactive mind is a sign of intelligence some time. HA!! A former GF would be out at lights out and it annoyed me to no end.
My husband is like that, too. He also still wears the same size pants he wore in college which is even more annoying.