I put this here because I feel like it falls among mental health issues. I am perplexed by the actions and thoughts of many people I know. Even a spouse (no not mine, least not yet) who harbors deep dark secrets about themselves and things they are involved in that are questionable and even disgusting. What changes in us that have us act out our dark secrets and feelings? I think everyone has bit of a dark side,something they are not proud of from past or even present. But to pursue those feelings and thoughts knowing the outcome would not be good. Why, what is the need? I will not talk about who or exactly what happened, but how do you continue to trust anyone who all their life were living a dark dirty secret? A pillar of the community, a hard working devoted family person. Someone you would never expect of doing such terrible things? How do we trust anyone when we find out these things? The pain that is left behind to many. How do we really Know anyone? Take a woman who has been married for years, to what appears to be the perfect spouse and father- only to find out it was all a facade ? The father who would risk his life to prove one of his children is not capable of any such terrible crimes- only to find out they were the leader of it all. You even read in the news everyday about people who lead double lives. But when the other side of their life becomes public, it changes everythings, for almost everybody. How can we continue to believe and trust any other human other than ourselves? I find myself lost this morning in a sea of questions that will never have a good answer. I will try to have faith and trust in another person, but it will never be complete trust.
Alcohol will bring out the dark side for sure. Sadly, I've even seen it in myself in the past although today I'm a teetotaler. The dark side is probably present in every human and is part of survival for self and the species. A mother could turn into a raging animal to protect her young. Civilization has made life easier so those types of feelings seldom get out.
I am not inclined to trust blindly. I have to know a good deal about the person before I trust them. I’ve cautioned my wife repeatedly about the “egg-shell thin veneer of normalcy” exhibited by people.
I hesitate to respond to this post for I have what I consider my dark moments but they are not destructive moments but more simply tired of sitting around waiting for the days to pass. I very much understand Eds thoughts about alcohol for that has in recent year become my crutch but fortunately a small amount makes me rather talkative (not that I often have anyone to talk to) and beyond a couple of shots sends me off to sleep it off. As for blind trust I figure I have been fortunate in that in living mostly in small rural communities and mostly working with a smaller group of technical types I rarely have had to deal with 'total arseholes' and long ago learned to simply walk away when faced with such. I tend to trust folks at face value and it has rarely led me wrong but you may be sure those who abused that trust never got a second chance, I think for the most part you receive what you give in this case! Unfortunately I have to add a caveat here in regards to those of you in the USA in that it appears to be a deep distrust with your fellow citizens by what apears to be a large portion of the population as evidenced by the ownership of firearms exclusively designed for killing fellow humans leaves me no longer wishing to travel south of our Canadian border. Unfortunately that general outlook appears to be embedded in many communities world wide …. not that this is anything new..... As I said above I have my dark moments!
I didn't read every word here, but for me and so late in life and don't have a drop of all the contacts I've had all my life, so at this point there isn't a hellava lot I need to know about the few people left in my life. My dark side are feelings toward our politicans and here again only so much I can control and try to change. 'I'm the only one I can control and change....