Haunted...

Are you haunted by things from the past? I awoke this morning to thoughts of a little girl in 1980. It is a complicated story, but she was about 18 months old and died as she cried bloody tears and blood streamed from her ears and nose. Her last words were, "Mommy, me sick...."

 

Yes, Don. I have talked about it in the past on SOC so I won't again. It is just too painful. Four major horrible tragic happenings with one of an unspeakable horrific nature. I don't know if haunted is the best word, but it is close enough. I liked your post not because of the horrible thing that haunts you, but because you can talk about it and perhaps deal with it better.

I might add this question to the discussion ... Have you found your "haunting" is getting more or less intense with age. I find mine getting more intense probably because I have more time to reminisce. I dealt with my "hauntings" by keeping busy and my mind occupied.

I was asked once if maybe dementia at an old age might be a good thing so I could forget. I say no, I do things to fight dementia every day. I want to remember it because it establishes validity in my life and why I chose the paths I did. When this subject arises and ministers, psychologists, or other self-proclaimed experts start their speel, I always asked them if they have first-hand experience watching a horrific death. Most say no, so I discount their opinions and advice.

 

I am "haunted" by two things; people I have hurt and things I should have done and didn't. I suppose those are more regrets than hauntings.

 

I think regrets can become hauntings. The thing I console myself with is the fact I cannot go back and change any of it. Only Marty McFly has the machine to do that and I have yet to meet Marty.

 

Try to train yourself not to be things you cannot change unless you can advise others to avoid the pitfalls. The little girl I mentioned was particularly tragic because the mother was given specific instructions she did not follow. Perhaps the pediatrician was not clear as to the danger her daughter COULD be in...don't know that, but if mom had followed instructions, her child might not have died.

 

Not haunted by much of anything and only a few regrets that aren't worth thinking about to any degree.

 

Good for you, I hope.
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I would not use the word haunted, but I do think about negative things from the past at times, but it’s useless to fret about them because they can’t be undone. One of the best things that someone ever told me was “always forward and never back”.

 

The “always forward and never back” advice is sound. One of the discordant aspects of HS reunions was the extent to which people wanted to reminisce. Being more interest in what people were doing and thinking now, I never fit into those aspects very well. I did enjoy my HS reunions, though, because I liked all the people I went to school with. I never went to a college reunion, having graduated off year due to working nights. Another stupid aspect of looking back was the talk of ghosts of the past haunting the halls of good ole PHS. I think there's something to the idea that looking back has some relationship to thoughts of ghosts.