This thread reminds me of the year when my father died. I was young at 30 but I felt lost. My fear of breaking up the family happened. The old apartment was vacated by my mother who moved in with my sister while my brother also moved to another house. I was actually happy with my husband but I also had that vision of maintaining the good connection of our family members. Making it worse was the cold war among my mom ang her children that included me. We were like to each his own. But with the diplomacy of my husband, we are once again whole as a family. And even if it took years to be one again, I am really thankful. If that good fate did not happen I could not imagine how my mother could have started on her own.
I started again in my sixties and moved abroad away from family and friends. I made new friends, some even like family now. I just think it's another phase of my life and certainly think my moving days are not over. Sometimes it's better to just take the plunge.
@Ina I. Wonder This house is a very nice home, it doesn't need a lot of repair or anything it is modern, but this whole area is just so LIMITING. You would have to live here to know what it means. It is not the place for a single person to be I can tell you that. Anyway, I have to keep working on making it the best it can be without spending big bucks. I don't want to have a realtor here until I am satisfied, the house looks good enough, because I think they look through the eyes of a potential buyer.
@Kitty Carmel I thought you might be from the other site, but I wasn't sure. I met so many good people there, and I admit I truly needed their help. I was very new to being online, and I really didn't understand just how public a forum could be. I guess I'm not the first person to have a melt down online, and that brought to me some of the best people I know. I'll be moving closer to my step-daughter's neck of the woods, so we can be of assistance do each other. Her son has agreed to live with me in a smaller home. It's a good arrangement for all three of us. But it's still hard to let this place go. So many memories. @Honey Gee if Michael were still alive, I'd love to go wherever and start over. Oh the adventure of it all. I am moving because of the financial aspects of my situation, and mostly because I don't seem to be able to let go of what can never be again while my history is all around me.
@Ina I. Wonder I am so pleased you will be getting support. I agree about forums and I think you have found decent people on this one. Xxx
My answer to you @Ina I. Wonder is that it is never to late to start over. But you can't start over or walk forward into the next season of your life until your heart, mind, and body are ready to this.