Of course I have felt both. I live in Wisconsin and live in an area of the most picturesque fall foliage available. This year, because of the rains, the colors are especially vibrant and I relish every drive to and from my house. I thank God almost each time. But there have been times in my life, I made the drive with no notice for whatever reason. Of course I have my aches and pains and friends and family have moved on. But I feel my joy and depression have more to do with something else than this. I have explained my theory that depression is a down time one needs to reboot. But I am still curious.