Sorry to hear about your MIL. As for me....who knows? Getting lonely and bored and that feeds my anxiety...have too much time to focus on every little thing and obsess.
@Chrissy Cross I get it. Agreed and understood. My wife's assessment of my own personal negatives is right on the money, and I have not done my part to change them to more positive. Wish I knew how....At least you had kids, which gives some solace, whereas I did not, so lack that "cushion" to fall back on. My falls are hard! Frank