Sorry if your delicate sensibilities are dinged. My prose is the same as my spoken word. I would use the same words and language if we were sitting beside one another at the diner. I am sorry that you are unhappy with your situation, but what myself(in my own profane way) and others are trying to point out, is that if you do the impulsive thing, avoid the hard road take the easy way out, you really have no gripe at the end result. I am sure you are a good man Cody, I am glad you have a life partner that loves you,but life has been no more unfair to you than it has anyone else. Peace Bro!